Dear Narcissist Problems,
Funny how the posts on this site come from people who think
that narcissists are abnormal, and that they're normal?
Sincerely,
“The Finger Pointer”
Dear “Finger Pointer”,
It was not
my intention to give you the impression that I was normal simply by addressing
Narcissistic Abuse and the tactics used by narcissistic abusers. I’m glad you are so observant! You are correct, I’m probably not normal
anymore. In fact, I lost my mind some
time ago. Thank you for pointing this out. To clear things up for you in the past decade
I’ve grown increasingly paranoid and at one point I was too scared to leave my
own home. I would sit in my house and
jump up to take a look-see out the window whenever I heard a car door shut or
people talking outside. When I meet
people who are really nice I evaluate them in my mind wondering what they are
plotting. I also keep my eyes peeled for
any signs of gas lighting to the point that if I’m around someone I don’t trust
I’ll set booby traps on my personal belongings so that I know if something has
been moved! I keep record of
conversations in case I’m ever forced to remember some insignificant detail
that should ever be questioned at a later date.
I also check to make sure all my windows are locked at least twice
before I leave my home! I lay in bed
some nights unable to sleep as I ruminate every conversation I’ve had in my
life trying to pin point what exactly is wrong with me. I spend countless hours reading about
emotional abuse and how to heal from it.
Moreover, I stopped using cell phones because ANY ring tone triggers
anxiety and a general feeling of impending doom. Most mornings, actually, I wake up with that
feeling that the worst thing in the world will happen to me today. After I get out of bed I tell myself that it
will be a great day around 100 times while getting ready to leave the
house. If I see a strange car I write
down the license plate. I have
nightmares every night. Sometimes I
drive in circles making random turns just to be sure I’m not being
followed. When I go to stores I might
have a panic attack and spend 45 minutes in the bathroom convincing myself I
can make it through the store, out to the parking lot, into my car, and then
back home without anything bad happening to me.
Hmmmmmmm, I’m sure I missed some
things but that’s just a run down. I
have flaws. I have many flaws!! So sorry I gave everyone the impression that
I’m normal! However, whether I am normal
or abnormal it does not change the fact that Narcissists are abnormal. “A” does not change the reality of “B” here, unfortunately. I did not mean to give the impression that
because narcissists are abnormal that makes me normal, I apologize for the
confusion.
Regards,
Narcissist Problems
